iminate

hai , tiba" gue kepikiran jaah buat nulis blog dengan tema ini..
-gue pernah kepikirian mau jadi artis , jadi model padahal itu jauh dri harapan
-gue pernah liat kakak kelas gue yang sewaktu dia smp dan gue sd , gua liat mereka udah bawa motor sndri" dan ketika gue smp gue belajar tapi masih takut" hahahah
-gue pernah liat kakak kelas gue yg cantik dengan poni yang unik , gue coba potong juga
-gue pernah liat cara kakak kelas gue foto dan i try it again
-gue pernah liat cara mereka berpakaian , dan gue coba juga
-gue selalu ngikutin ngko gue jalan ke mana , dia ke gading ya gue coba ke gading . disaat dia ke gi-pi gue juga ikutan hahaha
-gue liat ada gaya kristen stewart yang keren dan gue ngikutin lagi
-gue selalu liat anak jaman sekarang bawanya handbag dan gue juga beli bbrp untuk mengikuti tren hahhahhah
but i never iminate my friends :)

Hypophrenia

i don't how to feel , i don't know what should i do ..... so i just crying now ... crying without any reasons called Hypophrenia in biology .

part 2

like i said no one can replaced him ... and 'till now still like that . kadang gue juga mikir kenapa ya gue masih berjuang buat orng yang berhenti berjuang sama gue .. gue kdng suka mkir di kelas sambil bengong . kdang kalo emang gue udah gak tahan lagi ya gue nangis . nangis itu malah kayak ngluarin smua unek" gue tanpa ngomong .. gue skrng suka banget diem di kelas karna emg akhir"ini lagi sering flashback sndri. sedih . happy . kesel smua itu memori yang paling indah yang gue alamin sama dia .. dia nrima gue apa adanya walaupun dia emg bad boy , dan gua trima itu kok hehehehe . muv on dri dia gue punya cwok , dan tetep aja walaupun gue udah pnya cwok , gue tetep flashback sama dia .. sedih sob kdng kalo di pikir ulang .....

hai kalian !

haii , gue galau sob .... first gua masih sayang sama yg "itu" dan keadaan membuat gue harus move on . trus gue deket sama orang lain ... dan kembali flashback ke orang itu lagi . oke sama orang yg lagi deket ini , gue jauhin ... karna emg lebih enak jadi temen becandaan daripada jadi someone special ... talk about everything with him hahahah . gue deket sama banyak orang dan cuman 1 orang "itu" yang bisa bikin gue galau , nangis ,seneng ato happy kalo lagi flashback ke dia ... gue seneng banget bisa kenal sama dia .. gue sering pake brng yg dia kasih dri dlu smpe skrng .. jadi gue masuk org setia ato engga ? wkkwkkw . sebagian orng bilang gue gak prnh galau kalau di liat dri muka gue , gue tutupin sama snyum :) . sebagian bilang gue gk prnh galau-in cwok itu krna gue slalu blg gapapa , dia baik aja . sebagian bilang enak ya , hidup lu selalu di bawa enjoy dan yolo karena gue punya temen hang out yg kebetulan juga jomblo dan gak slalu sibuk. gue selalu di bilang cuek , tapi kalo kalian kenal gue dengan baik gue care kok orgnya ehheheheh. gue sering di php-in sama org yg labil ... gue sih biasa aja karna terbiasa di gituin sama dia .. sakit sih apalagi ujungnya tuh gak happy ending .. gue masih seneng sampe skrng gue masih punya sohib yang care sama gue dri suka sama duka kita alamin bareng .. dri kayak sampe susah juga bareng terushh ....


second , gue kesel banget sama org yg pamer pcaran depan gue ... okelah lu pacaran , kacangin gue gapapa sob . tapi kalo lu bener" sengaja pamer depan gue , gue bisa kesel sob ... orang punya batasan yeaaa .

third, orang selalu ngatain gue jones jones ... gue jones karna emg lagi gak pengen sob , gue deket sama cwok lain aja masih kebayang yang lama , dripada di kira php gue jauhin dlu deh smpe gue bisa muv on .... kalo emg cwok ini setia pasti dia bakal ngerti dan bakal nungguiin gue .. itu cara gue nge teskuatnya perasaan orng itu ke gue :)

Galau

galau sering kok di alamin hahahahaha ! temen gue baru ajah di putusin sama lakinya ... gue kesel sebenrnya mreka pdkt 1,5 taon .. jadian cmn 3 bulan , shitty kan ! cwoknya rada kesel gue , maunya cweknya  chat dluan ... kadang gue binggung yang cwek yg mana yang cwok yang mana 

ini gunanya punya sahabat ! lo bisa sharing ke mereka tanpa lu merasa lu itu orang yang paling bodoh yang prnh ada , karna sahabat lo itu gak akan ninggalin lo saat lo susah ! 

Gue ajakin girls day out terus biar sibukk , biar gak tralu sibuk cek hape , biar gak galau .... hidup udah ribet jangan di bkin tambah ribet soal ginian sob .... 

My Best Friend (story)

Hey !! i have 3 Besties , 2 of them i know when i'm playground and one of them i know when i'm in primary school . Now, i'm sit at senior high school ! and we are still bestfriend . Although sometimes we have some tiff or some like that , we still BESTFRIEND ! 

We laugh with loud voice , we listen to one another and We do something silly , weird and freak together ! 

There are sometimes selfish 

There are sometimes spoiled 

There is sometimes difficult invited to go 

There is  feels herself the most beautiful (me) LOL hahahaha 

But underneath, there must be a kindness ugliness 

They either 

They are funny 

Protect one another 

Too much if I describe it now

But one thing i want to tell you :    " I LOVE THEM SO MUCH  "

Quotes Of This Week

- You give up , It means you don't really want it.

-Why you have a Bf/Gf  if at the end you'll break up with them ? So , Why you're Breathing if at the end you will Die

Such a weird feeling

Like the quotes where they said like this :
i see 10.000 boys
i like 1.000 boys
i know 100 boys
i talk 10 boys
i love 1 boys


Anywhere , somewhere or whatever it is . I talk 'bout 10 boys who really cares for me , but they're just a friends . 'Till now no one can replaced you dude ! Like i say tommorow it will be same until now 'The One and Only ' . But i just wanna you feel happy , longlast with your garl ! ;;)

never ending story

Hey ! Last night , i and my besties play truth or dare . When they spin the bottle , the bottle stop in front of me then i should say the truth . They ask me : Jess do you still love 'him' ? i'm confused . Then , i say yes i still want him back . "he's a bad boy !" said them . 

But , when the game is stopped . I thought : he's a bad boy and i still want him back . Cause , no matter who you are and what you do , if i say i like you , i really like you . No one can understamd this absurd feeling 

hey

gue emang belom demen sama ini orang tapi tiap kali dia chat sama gue , gue nge fly banget . Cocok gak sih org yang baru gue kenal belom sampe sebulan tau segalanya tentang gue , serem sih sebenernya . tapi kayaknya dia ngerokok ... males jadinya kwkwkwk. dia kalo bales chat itu lama behh bikin gue tambah males . gue sih seneng-seneng aja tiap hari di chat mulu sama dia ... tapi ya gitu balesnya lama .

Sometimes

Sometimes, what you expect is not what you receive.
Sometimes, you also have to accept the pain.
Sometimes, you have to learn to accept everything.
Sometimes, you also need to learn not to trust themselves too much
Sometimes, you have to accept what you can because someday they definitely / items that you will need