hampir saja

waktu itu siang hari , gue bangun dan gua kayak lagi rebahan di ranjang rumah sakit dah ada suster gt , banyak orang yg juga lagi rebahan gitu dan ternyata tiba2 suster itu nyamperin gue dan nyuntikin sesuatu cairan dan sebelum di suntik gue nanya ke susternya ,"sus itu buat apa ?" dan susternya jawab gini ,"buat percoba... eh buat ambil darah dek."

opss dan setelah saat itu gue gk sadarkan diri dan waktu gue bangun gua di suruh bayar 6,8 jt ... gelaa .

Gatau kenapa abis gue keluar dari rumah sakit itu gue langsung line 1 orang cowok dan gue ngajak dia nonton and he said okay . Kita ketemuan di sunter gt terus dia manggil 2 taxi , dia nyuruh gue naik taxi yg kedua dan dia naik taxi yang pertama (dia blg dia mau ambil mobil)then gue naik taxi jalan k gading but di tengah jalan gue ketemu temen2 gue dan gue setop di situ dan ketika gue mau bayar ternyata gue lupa bawa dompet . Gue turun dan mimjem duit sana sini sekalian minjem duit buat nonton .... okay gue effort bgt .
Terus gue sekalian nungguin cowok itu dan gak lama abis gue capek nunggu dan mau plg ... gue liat dia dateng ke tempat yg tdi gue turun taxi dan itu tuh rame banget ada dia dan temen"nya . waktu gue mau keluar dan pulang temenya blg : jesss dia mau minta maaf sama loo , jesssss !!
gue jalan aja terus gak peduli walaupun di panggil-panggil . Gela gue benci banget liat mukanya. gue nangis sekenceng"nyaaa dlm perjalanan pulang .

gue balik sama temen gue dan temen gue ngajak ke gi gitu ... di sana kita semua ketemu gebetan temen gue gitu dan mereka kayak berantem gitu dan abis itu temen gue ada yang nanya (gini percakapannya )
A:eh jes kok lu bisa ngajak dia nonton ?
gue : gatau , tiba2 lagi mood aja gt ngajak dia nonton
A: tau gak sih tadi dia capture chat line lo dan dia post di grup dia gitu trus dia blg di grupnya gini ,"aduh jepang lagi jepang lagi ."
 gue diem dan gak lama ya gue nangis lagi maksudnya kalo dri awal lo gamau yaudahh gausah bilang okay ... gue tau lo ganteng dan ya emang sih lo semacem orang yang gak bisa gue lupain dari smp sampe sekarang tapi plis jangan giniin gue ..

Dan akhirnya gue Bangun WKWKWK TERNYATA SEMUA INI HANYA MIMPI WKWKWK
but gue emang beneran gk bisa lupain dia walaupun udah gak deket lagi hehehe

Jealous

2 hari yang lalu , "dia" bilang lagi di sahara ... oke gue ngerti dah yeaaa . trus dia snapchat gue gitu , tau gak sih dia selfie gitu sama cwek ... trus snapchat seterusnya cweknya yg fotoin arden ... de fak wee gue jealous . trus dia line gue : jangan marah ! yang tadi tuh cuman temen gw dri smp .
gue : dih siapa yang marah .. wkwkkw
dia : siapatau lu mikir gue gue genit gitu sama cewek
dsb ..
gue awalnya mikir iya dia genit sma cwek" ... gak ngerti deh pokoknya sama jalan pikiran tuh org .
gue jealous woyy ! walaupun gue  bilang enggak dsb.
sometimes "hahahha" dan "wkwkwk" itu berbeda yaa :") ngertiin gue plisss ... tanggung jawab lo udah bkin gue demen sama lo !

Hay kalian !

hayyy .. udah lama gue gak nulis blog . Gue pengen curhat , gue kan deket sama orang gue tau dia gagal move on dan dia juga tau gue gagal move on . Dia MASIH sayang BANGET sama cweknya , maka dari itu gue gak berharap banyak dari kedeketan gue ini . Tapi makin lama kok gue malah makin ngerasa demen gitu ye ... hahaha fak emg . Kemaren dia ntn basket , trus oke gue ngerti kalo dia balesnya lama ... trus dia blg dia kecewa gitu sama tuh grup basket , gue blg aja gue gak mudeng soal basket lagi trus dia blg oke gausah bahas basket lagi , pengertian DIKIT sih wkwkwkkw .

Trus pas jem 11-an dia otw plg trus blg , jgn tidur dlu dongssss ..oke gue tungguin smpe stengah 12 lebih ... trus snapchat , mungkin dri snapchat muka gue keliatan tuh capek abis  gue sebenernya emg lagi capek banget , mata gue lagi sakit yang kiri dan gue lagi gak enak badan sama pusing ... penyakitan emg gue . yaudah gue tungguin aja dia , terlanjur demen kali ye gue wkwkwk

gue curhat ke temen gue kalo kejadian ini kdng kalo di pikir tuh gak fair banget buat gue ...
-temen pertama gue blg : lu sih niat banget jes , dia aja gak pernah nge gituin lu kan ... kalo pergi main pergi kan ? lo gak ngerasa sepi jes ? bego banget jes sumpah adanya tuh lu ygg di tungguin dia bukan sebaliknya ! lu keadaan lo lagi gini malah maksain buat orang gak penting
-temen ke dua gue : Bego jes sumpah jes bego banget .. udalah tinggal tidur aja lah lo juga lagi sakit kan jes
-temen gue ke 3 : tolol jing , lo macem pelampiasan doang , kalo dia lagi sepi baru nyariin elu kan , bego sumpah
gue cuman bales : i'll take a risk , kdng gue takut nyesel buat ke2x nya ...

temen gue sampe kesel ngingetin gue , udah pada cape jugakatanya : buat apa sih suka sama dia gak ada untungnya , bego banget ngerugiin diri sendiri

gue galau , gue binggung ... hati gue lagi pait , lagi anyep , lagi mesem hahahha nano" gitu deh rasanya .. suka doang gapapa kan ?

gue emg gak suka kalo di tinggal" gitu apalagi tnpa brb , macem pelampiasan doang kan jadinya ..
gue gak suka kalo lgi deket sama gue bahas ttg cwek lain
gue gak suka dia nyinggung orang yang ada di masa lalu gue , apa banget deh
gue gak suka , gue kdng benci kdng kesel tapi gak bisa ngomong ato nyuekin ... hahahah fakk

S.O.B

SHIT lo boong kan sama gue ... lo gak bawa hp dri jem 12 ? Fak jem 5 lo nge path . Awal aja uda boong ...
Makasih deh hahahaha

When i'm fallin in love

-Gue bakal nge stalk org yg gue demen
-Gue bakal sering nyindir lu di socmed
-Gue bisa main ngambek"aan sama lu
-Gue bisa modusin lo
-Gue bakal bales chat lo cepet bgt
-Gue bakal ngata"in lo
-Gue bakal galau kalo lo tiba" ngilang
-Kalo lo gak chat gue .. selalu ngrasa ada yg krng
-kalo gue ketemu lo gue gamau liat mata lo
-gue bakal salting kalo ketemu lo
tapi gue bakal Seneng banget kalo ketemu lo
-kalo gue emg udah ngrasa cocok banget ,gue gak pduli sifat jelek lo itu apa ... lo ganteng ato jelek or something like that

Maybe , gue uda siap buat move on ... hahahaha

ini tentang gue

-gue suka ngomel" sndri
-gue egois kdng
-gue yolo
-gue nglakuin hal yang selalu bkin gue seneng
-gue selalu aja gagal move on
-gue sekali demen sama org bakal susah buat benci/menjauh
-gue selalu bales chat org dengam cepat
-gue benci di php-in
-gue bandel
-gue bandit
-gue kayak cwok
-gue jones
-gue kalo ngaca itu lama
-gue demen sama bule ganteng
-gue pengen ke ausi ,menetap kalo bisa
-gue jrng nangis depan umum .. kecuali di temenin sohib gue
-gue selalu senyum
-gue gendut
-gue tinggi
-gue masuk mgs cmn gajadi
-gue buddha
-gue lahir 25 april 1998
-gue demen bgt sm foto tumblr
-gue demen ntn
-gue benci cowok ngrokok tpi skrng harus belajar nrima apa adanya
-gue benci kalo di banding"in
-gue benci ketika temen gue nusuk gue dri blkng
-gue benci ketika gue gampang nyerah
-gue benci ketika org bales chat gue singkat"
-gue gkprnh bbm cwok dluan kecuali pnting bgt
-gue gengsian
-gue benci ketika chat gue cmn di read
-gue benci org labil
-gue selalu stay strong and fake smile
-gue apa adanya
-gue mau jdi model
-gue demen poni panjang
-gue demen lagu dj
-gue demen kriaten stewart
-gue kdng bisa perhatian
-gue gampang ngambek
-gue .... ya gue 

Maybe its called move on ?

hey ! goodmorning , gue waktu kemaren" mikir gue masih penasaran sama nih orang ato gue read aja chatnya ... tapi gue masih penasaran banget dah ah . gue pancing aja dengan gue curhat dan dia juga curhat ttng gebetannya , nysek sih tapi gimana lagi ya kan ... kadang gue berasa ke sindir secara gak langsung sama apa yang dia ketik ke gue .
 terus temen gue nanya : Jes , lu prnh gak kepikiran move on dri "kk kelas" ke dia ?
 gue: iyaaa pernah , tapi dia bales chatnya lama , males gue vel
temen gue : yaudah jes , dia ga bs moveon dr tuh cwek. jadi lu bs bantu dia move on. begitu jga sebalik nya brayyy
gue : iye sih , tapi gue sih gamau lah ya chat duluan , gue gengsi
temen gue :  gue jamin dia line lagi dah

gue sih seneng" aja kemaren dia chat trus yaa jadi tambah baek lah yaa wkwkwkwk biasanya kalo ngilang ya udah ngilang aja hahaha tumben looh kmren blg brb

Confused

Good afternoon everybody !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gue tadi abis aja ntn reality show di mtv asia , Are you the one judulnya . Acara ini tuh tentang kayak semacem nyari jodoh antara 10 cwok dan 10 cwek yang kalo mreka smua berhasil jadian bakal dapet 1 juta dollar . dan waktu gue ntn episode yang ke 6 dan ke 7 gatau kenapa gue nangis . gue salut sama 1 pasangan Shanley dan Chris T , mereka deket pdkt gitu trus gatau kenapa berantem dan tapi balikan lagi trus bkin jeles satu sama lain . pas di episode ke 6 mreka misah kelompok challenge karna Shanley nya keburu di tarik sama cwok nigga , sebenernya Shanley juga takut si Chrisnya malah tapi mau gimna lagi ya kan . nah chris juga sama cwek lain namanya paige . dan pasangan shanley -nigga , Chris -paige itu tuh sama" kayak masuk dalam babak final gitu kan dalam challenge itu . trus setiap challenge tuh pasti ada beberapa pasangan yang masuk ke truth booth buat mastiin mreka itu perfect match ato enggak dan yang kepilih masuk ke truth booth adalah .... Chris and Paige . Sewaktu voting , Temen" dome mreka tuh udah ngerenanain buat misahain Shanley sama Chris T , dan yang paling ngotot adalah simone si cwek nigga yang gue sebel banget . Shanley nangis .... dia takut kalo Chris sama Paige adalah perfect match .... dan hal yang dia takutkan terwujud ...

sebenernya, paige juga udah punya pasangan yaitu Scali ... waktu kepilih dan kembali masuk ke dome nya . Shanley uda nangis sambil nungguin chris , Chris juga langsung duduk di samping Shanley buat ngehibur dia . Chris ngerasa hopeless padhal dia menangin kontes tapi dia bakal pergi sama cwek lain bukan sama sang kekasih , Shanley . Mereka hug lama banget mereka kiss lama banget .... oke di bagian ini gue nangis apalagi wktu cris blg : i'll see you soon babe.
pasngan yang uda perfect match itu tinggal misah sama yg masih belom perfect, pas baru nyampe kamar ... Chris langsung blg ke paige : you can have the bed .
dan chris tidur di sofa tanpa nyentuh paige ... oke chris setia sama shanley
dan shanley duduk di ayunan sambil nangis :'(

hahahahahh gue nangis juga sambil ngebayangin pas dulu, terkadang apa yang gue mau , apa yang gue sayang , apa yang gue demen ... semuanya itu terkadang gak bisa gue dapetin . Gue ngerti apa yang shanley rasain ketika cwoknya itu pergi semacem honeymoon sama cwek lain , dan bedanya sama gue adalah cwoknya setia dan terus nunggu ... gue cwoknya udah ada yang baruuu sedangkan gue gak bisa move on walaupun cmn pdkt belom smpe jadian ... gatau knp gue gak bisa move on hahahha so funny

heyooo

gue nyoba hal-hal yang buat gue dulu itu pantang banget tapi karena penasaran kita jadi pada nyobain .... hahahaha bandel gue emg . Shisha lah minum lah .. gue sih emg gak tahan kalo ngerokok ya jadi masih zona yang aman lah ya . gue pernah bilang gak demen cwok yang ngrokok ato semacemnya tapi kenapa skrng gue jadi ikut'an ya .... gue udah pusing dri kemaren nyisha , gue hampir puyeng deh ah

kedua sobb , dari kemaren gue liat dp bbm orang dan orang itu majang foto cewek , gue awalnya biasa ajah tapi kok pas gue denger lagu say something gue ngerasa kecewa banget , gue berasa di mainin sama dia dan pas gue denger lagu itu kemaren malem , gue nangis hahaha cengeng ya gue :)

unek-unek gue sob

Hai gue kesel nih hari ini , gatau kenapa keselnya tuh udah sampe ubun-ubun HAHAHAHA .
Pertama , sohib gue tanggal 3 kemaren baru aja jadian , kenapa sih kalo udah jadian jadi songgong banget sob ? lo gak perlu kali nanya gini ke gue
Lo : sakit gak jes ?
gue : sakit apaan ?
Lo : sakit batin liat orang pacaran
gue (hening lalu jawab) ah anyingh lo
gue ketawa" bukan berarti gue gak kesel , lo kdng ngomong gak pake otak emang . lo ngataiin gue bejat kan tapi lo ternyata gitu . ketika gue nutupin kesalahan lo , lo malah buka kesalahan gue di depan umum . HAHAHAHA gue jadi mikir lo temen ato sahabat gue sih ?
orang selalu mikir gue ngambekan , yes i am . yang pasti gue gak suka nusuk sohib sndri :p

kedua , ini gara gara lo lagi sob , lo gak perlu nanyain hal yang sama tentang gue jomblo . berasa laku banget sob ? gue kayak gini karna emang gue gamau .... kalo gue mau dri kemaren udah jadi kok sama dia hahaha
gue mau ngerasain hidup tanpa sakit hati . eha malah lo yang bkin gue tmbah sakit hati , jederrr gue kaget denger apa yang lo omongin skrng ke temen" lo ... lo bisa banget deh nutupin busuknya elo . tapi lo tau gue kan dri socmed sampe chat lo ajah gue tau smuanya , stalker yang baik kan gue

hahahghhhhh , gue gak demen sama lo boy . kalo bisa lo block gue ajah .. jadi gue gak akan berasa lo php-in gue nantinya . gue tau lo deket sama banyak cewek , gue tau smuanya ... kalo lo bisa jadi kayak "dia" mungkin nrima lo apa adanya tuh gak bakal sulit banget .. gue gak maksud bandingin boy its the fact . dan kalo lo beneran bisa bikin gue comfort , gue bakal sering galauin lo tau gakkkk. lo juga gak perlu kali sebut sebut nama "jessica titania" di depan org banyak, gue bakal di anggep nyuri idola para fans lo boy ... plis don't do this again . gue mau hidup tenang tanpa adanya gangguan haters dari fans lo

apapun yang ada nama gue , gue itu tau ... stalker yang baik kan emang gue :) hahahaha

iminate

hai , tiba" gue kepikiran jaah buat nulis blog dengan tema ini..
-gue pernah kepikirian mau jadi artis , jadi model padahal itu jauh dri harapan
-gue pernah liat kakak kelas gue yang sewaktu dia smp dan gue sd , gua liat mereka udah bawa motor sndri" dan ketika gue smp gue belajar tapi masih takut" hahahah
-gue pernah liat kakak kelas gue yg cantik dengan poni yang unik , gue coba potong juga
-gue pernah liat cara kakak kelas gue foto dan i try it again
-gue pernah liat cara mereka berpakaian , dan gue coba juga
-gue selalu ngikutin ngko gue jalan ke mana , dia ke gading ya gue coba ke gading . disaat dia ke gi-pi gue juga ikutan hahaha
-gue liat ada gaya kristen stewart yang keren dan gue ngikutin lagi
-gue selalu liat anak jaman sekarang bawanya handbag dan gue juga beli bbrp untuk mengikuti tren hahhahhah
but i never iminate my friends :)

Hypophrenia

i don't how to feel , i don't know what should i do ..... so i just crying now ... crying without any reasons called Hypophrenia in biology .

part 2

like i said no one can replaced him ... and 'till now still like that . kadang gue juga mikir kenapa ya gue masih berjuang buat orng yang berhenti berjuang sama gue .. gue kdng suka mkir di kelas sambil bengong . kdang kalo emang gue udah gak tahan lagi ya gue nangis . nangis itu malah kayak ngluarin smua unek" gue tanpa ngomong .. gue skrng suka banget diem di kelas karna emg akhir"ini lagi sering flashback sndri. sedih . happy . kesel smua itu memori yang paling indah yang gue alamin sama dia .. dia nrima gue apa adanya walaupun dia emg bad boy , dan gua trima itu kok hehehehe . muv on dri dia gue punya cwok , dan tetep aja walaupun gue udah pnya cwok , gue tetep flashback sama dia .. sedih sob kdng kalo di pikir ulang .....

hai kalian !

haii , gue galau sob .... first gua masih sayang sama yg "itu" dan keadaan membuat gue harus move on . trus gue deket sama orang lain ... dan kembali flashback ke orang itu lagi . oke sama orang yg lagi deket ini , gue jauhin ... karna emg lebih enak jadi temen becandaan daripada jadi someone special ... talk about everything with him hahahah . gue deket sama banyak orang dan cuman 1 orang "itu" yang bisa bikin gue galau , nangis ,seneng ato happy kalo lagi flashback ke dia ... gue seneng banget bisa kenal sama dia .. gue sering pake brng yg dia kasih dri dlu smpe skrng .. jadi gue masuk org setia ato engga ? wkkwkkw . sebagian orng bilang gue gak prnh galau kalau di liat dri muka gue , gue tutupin sama snyum :) . sebagian bilang gue gk prnh galau-in cwok itu krna gue slalu blg gapapa , dia baik aja . sebagian bilang enak ya , hidup lu selalu di bawa enjoy dan yolo karena gue punya temen hang out yg kebetulan juga jomblo dan gak slalu sibuk. gue selalu di bilang cuek , tapi kalo kalian kenal gue dengan baik gue care kok orgnya ehheheheh. gue sering di php-in sama org yg labil ... gue sih biasa aja karna terbiasa di gituin sama dia .. sakit sih apalagi ujungnya tuh gak happy ending .. gue masih seneng sampe skrng gue masih punya sohib yang care sama gue dri suka sama duka kita alamin bareng .. dri kayak sampe susah juga bareng terushh ....


second , gue kesel banget sama org yg pamer pcaran depan gue ... okelah lu pacaran , kacangin gue gapapa sob . tapi kalo lu bener" sengaja pamer depan gue , gue bisa kesel sob ... orang punya batasan yeaaa .

third, orang selalu ngatain gue jones jones ... gue jones karna emg lagi gak pengen sob , gue deket sama cwok lain aja masih kebayang yang lama , dripada di kira php gue jauhin dlu deh smpe gue bisa muv on .... kalo emg cwok ini setia pasti dia bakal ngerti dan bakal nungguiin gue .. itu cara gue nge teskuatnya perasaan orng itu ke gue :)

Galau

galau sering kok di alamin hahahahaha ! temen gue baru ajah di putusin sama lakinya ... gue kesel sebenrnya mreka pdkt 1,5 taon .. jadian cmn 3 bulan , shitty kan ! cwoknya rada kesel gue , maunya cweknya  chat dluan ... kadang gue binggung yang cwek yg mana yang cwok yang mana 

ini gunanya punya sahabat ! lo bisa sharing ke mereka tanpa lu merasa lu itu orang yang paling bodoh yang prnh ada , karna sahabat lo itu gak akan ninggalin lo saat lo susah ! 

Gue ajakin girls day out terus biar sibukk , biar gak tralu sibuk cek hape , biar gak galau .... hidup udah ribet jangan di bkin tambah ribet soal ginian sob .... 

My Best Friend (story)

Hey !! i have 3 Besties , 2 of them i know when i'm playground and one of them i know when i'm in primary school . Now, i'm sit at senior high school ! and we are still bestfriend . Although sometimes we have some tiff or some like that , we still BESTFRIEND ! 

We laugh with loud voice , we listen to one another and We do something silly , weird and freak together ! 

There are sometimes selfish 

There are sometimes spoiled 

There is sometimes difficult invited to go 

There is  feels herself the most beautiful (me) LOL hahahaha 

But underneath, there must be a kindness ugliness 

They either 

They are funny 

Protect one another 

Too much if I describe it now

But one thing i want to tell you :    " I LOVE THEM SO MUCH  "

Quotes Of This Week

- You give up , It means you don't really want it.

-Why you have a Bf/Gf  if at the end you'll break up with them ? So , Why you're Breathing if at the end you will Die

Such a weird feeling

Like the quotes where they said like this :
i see 10.000 boys
i like 1.000 boys
i know 100 boys
i talk 10 boys
i love 1 boys


Anywhere , somewhere or whatever it is . I talk 'bout 10 boys who really cares for me , but they're just a friends . 'Till now no one can replaced you dude ! Like i say tommorow it will be same until now 'The One and Only ' . But i just wanna you feel happy , longlast with your garl ! ;;)

never ending story

Hey ! Last night , i and my besties play truth or dare . When they spin the bottle , the bottle stop in front of me then i should say the truth . They ask me : Jess do you still love 'him' ? i'm confused . Then , i say yes i still want him back . "he's a bad boy !" said them . 

But , when the game is stopped . I thought : he's a bad boy and i still want him back . Cause , no matter who you are and what you do , if i say i like you , i really like you . No one can understamd this absurd feeling 

hey

gue emang belom demen sama ini orang tapi tiap kali dia chat sama gue , gue nge fly banget . Cocok gak sih org yang baru gue kenal belom sampe sebulan tau segalanya tentang gue , serem sih sebenernya . tapi kayaknya dia ngerokok ... males jadinya kwkwkwk. dia kalo bales chat itu lama behh bikin gue tambah males . gue sih seneng-seneng aja tiap hari di chat mulu sama dia ... tapi ya gitu balesnya lama .

Sometimes

Sometimes, what you expect is not what you receive.
Sometimes, you also have to accept the pain.
Sometimes, you have to learn to accept everything.
Sometimes, you also need to learn not to trust themselves too much
Sometimes, you have to accept what you can because someday they definitely / items that you will need

crush

hey I have a new crush. He was always trying to find about me, from the residence to any of it. even though we knew it wasn't until 1 year or 1 month. but I feel comfortable when I chat with him. so whether this will continue for one year to the next?

                                         "Love me Today , Don't leave me Tommorow"

"But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She’s cheer captain
And i’m on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you’re looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i’m the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can’t you
See you belong with me
You belong with me."

those words make me feel so ..... absurd

Feel

hey , still love her ? i'm Confused , should i give up or not .

Demons - Imagine Dragon

When the days are coldAnd the cards all foldAnd the saints we seeAre all made of gold
When your dreams all failAnd the ones we hailAre the worst of allAnd the blood’s run stale
I want to hide the truthI want to shelter youBut with the beast insideThere’s nowhere we can hide
No matter what we breedWe still are made of greedThis is my kingdom comeThis is my kingdom come
When you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hide
When the curtain’s callIs the last of allWhen the lights fade outAll the sinners crawl
So they dug your graveAnd the masqueradeWill come calling outAt the mess you made
Don’t want to let you downBut I am hell boundThough this is all for youDon’t want to hide the truth
No matter what we breedWe still are made of greedThis is my kingdom comeThis is my kingdom come
When you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hide
They say it's what you makeI say it's up to fateIt's woven in my soulI need to let you go
Your eyes, they shine so brightI want to save their lightI can't escape this nowUnless you show me how
When you feel my heatLook into my eyesIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hideDon’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hideIt’s where my demons hide

MUSIK KANAAN 24/01/2014

At MUSIKANAAN !!!!

Ada anak Kanaan Global School ,Band , choir , Stand up comedy, B-Boy , Dj , Coverdance

This is Fuckin' Awesome !!!

Try

I thought I had to do this and move on, have you reconciled? sometimes I think I do not need to do this, but if I do not do this I will not be able to move on .



          "Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flameWhere there is a flameSomeone's bound to get burnedBut Just because it burnsDoes not mean you're gonna dieYou've gotta get up and try try tryGotta get up and try try tryYou gotta get up and try try try"

Thanks For Everything

The new year begins with a sense of shattered pieces. Finally, I also feel like this. This is actually my fault too fast to trust and love someone. stupid girl. hey you two may reconcile. I'm happy if you are happy participate

"What Now" -RIHANNA

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying,
tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger now, or so I say,
But something's missing

Whatever it is,
it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is,
it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Oh, oh, oh, oh! What now?

I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And he just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again

Whatever it is,
it feels like it's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is,
it's just sitting there laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Please tell me
What now?

There's no one to call 'cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone
'Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Somebody tell me
What now?

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know oh oh why
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know oh oh why
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know oh oh why

So what now?

Hey

hey, did you ever feel when your friend hurt you? when you like someone and then support you but in the end he just took a knock and someone that you like it? I never. 
when I like someone, she supports and then dropped me. okay in the end I gave up liking someone, then move on to someone else. when I move on, I feel enjoy with this person. but in the end my friend also like it again, but when someone is a lover is my best friend, my best friend and then throw even like someone who had he won. Now when I like someone who has been in campakkannyya he just wants to take it back. Should I give back? I'm confused